At the beginning of every year, most people resolve to be different in some way. Lose weight, cut back or eliminate bad habits, save money, or be more organized are a few popular goals.
I’m not one for making resolutions to start on January 1st. I do still make goals, but it’s hard to be consistent and achieve them. So this year, 2018, is going to be my “Try (My Best)” year. How can I fail if all I have to do is try? I can only fail if I don’t begin. Trite but true.
If you live with depression, you know how hard it is to even get out of bed some days, much less take care of the minor ordeals life can bring. If you have perfectionism of any sort, you know it’s challenging to begin something without knowing how it will end and that the final result will turn out the way you expected.
But if I try, regardless of what my mind is telling me… If I just start, without listening to that nasty voice of expectation… maybe something will happen. Maybe I’ll start enjoying life again.
So here are a few things I want to try this year:
- Bullet Journaling – If you’ve been anywhere near Pinterest lately, you’ve heard of bullet journals. Supposedly, they are amazing things in which you can dump your whole life, track your progress, increase productivity, and keep memories. And, oh, the decorative opportunities! I have a lot of skepticism about it, but hey, it’s a chance to play with all my lovely coloring tools and office supplies.
- Reading – I’m out of the habit of reading regularly. I have trouble focusing for more than a few minutes, and it’s scary how little I recall. Again, the mantra of this year is “Try.” I miss reading, and I want to be able to get back to where I can devour multiple chapters in a day, if not a whole book.
- Sewing – I can sew. It’s a nice skill to have when perfectionism isn’t crawling on your neck, demanding that the corners be perfectly sharp and the seams be expertly finished. Perfectly serviceable should be acceptable, right? Another obstacle to sewing is my craft room, which brings me to the next thing I want to try.
- Organization + Minimalism – Another super trendy thing I’m sure you’ve heard about is Minimalism. The great thing about it is you can define what minimalism is for you. So, minimalism for me might be sticking with two Ellowyne dolls instead of an army, or four sets of colored pencils instead of 12, or all 12 sets if I’m legitimately using them. (I don’t know how many sets of colored pencils I have, but I have made the decision to part with at least two sets). Once I’ve minimized, I will be able to organize more successfully. It sure will make packing a lot easier.
- Research & Learn – My favorite thing in school was writing research papers. I even did it for fun outside of class. I miss amassing facts with which to bore or astonish people. I miss the challenge of trying to make the potentially dull interesting.
- Write – I write a little, mostly for this blog. I would like to improve the quality of my pieces, and be more prolific. I think using my journal again, in addition to making a commitment to publishing more entries in this blog, will be a great start.
- Goal setting – This is a skill I need to improve. My goals are nebulous at best, just like my resolution to “try.” While “Try (My Best)” is the main target for the year, I have to learn to set small goals so that in the future I can aim for loftier ambitions. Maybe 2019 will be “Dream and Achieve.”
- Affirmations – I’m not talking about the touchy/feely sort of affirmations that you say in the mirror every morning to make yourself feel better. This is more akin to goal setting, like “I will be a millionaire,” or “I will have a famous blog.” I found this take on affirmations in Scott Adam’s book, The Dilbert Future. It’s worked somewhat in the past, but my commitment has always been lacking. I also can’t tell if I’m using magical thinking or attributing certain positive outcomes to the method inaccurately.
I’m sure there will be more things I’ll try in 2018, and will probably blog about all of them. I wish I had a better denouement, but I want to get this published and my intentions into the universe.